Wonderful eulogy.

My condolences. It seems particularly poignant as your father was younger I am.

Your state of joblessness may be where you need to be given the unknown circumstances of your father’s death, and your task of handling his estate. The loss of a close family member starts subtle inner changes within each of us, and sometimes there is something unexpected about the process. As you fully absorbed the meaning, the importance, and the function he held in your life, this time can be an opportunity to plant the seeds for new life choices. This time could allow you to reach deeply within yourself, to be more aware of yourself, learning from what you piece together about him, and facing any new truths that may emerge. This is the time when you build the foundation for your next phase, which will follow smoothly in due course as you do the inner work.

Grief has a heavy, slow quality that can not be denied, but its dark cloud also spontaneous lifts when it has played itself out.

Wish you strength, and patience with yourself.